Venting

I need to vent.
I hate them , I hate them all, why the fuck cant they leave me alone and not try and fuck with my life. I hate not being able to talk about the things that I want, I hate when people don't listen to me and they continue to hinder me when I'm only trying to do something good. I hate it when people think that they should be the center of the world and are not considerate of other people, especially when their inconsiderate behavior leaves me hanging out to dry. It really really bothers me. Sometimes I swear that people are doing things just to fuck with my life...And now it turns out I can't even go to the grocery store without considering the ramifications of what's going to happen. basically I have to change my whole routine just to so that no drama is started. I really hate that. GODDESS SAVE ME! I really need to get out of this town/state

Hello Old Friends

Hello Old Friends, I must say that it has been a long time since I actually visited you. I missed you all and Im hoping that you all missed me too. It may seem odd, but perhaps the most exciting news I have is of new shoes. LOL. So I also started classes again, which is pretty awesome. I really like all of my classes...ok so not true, all except for one...But Im sure I can deal with that. I must go now, but I promise I will be back again soon with some brilliant piece of enlightenment.
Peace

Shes a narcissistic egomaniac and I Hate Her. An odd feeling, Its different than the urge for revenge, which is hot. This hate burns cold. So cold it freezes a part of my soul.

In Loving Memory

What else can I do?

I am so frustrated right now, that this is the only thing I can think of that could possibly make me feel better about my life. I have come to the conclusion that people basically suck. They say that they will be there for you, and that you can rely on them or they make you think that your important and whatever kind of relationship you have, be it that of friend or lover, is special as well. Then they throw you the curve ball that makes you wonder how the hell you ever invited that person into your life. All this only leads to the ever wandering question of "What If...?" which is impossible to answer and can only lead to more frustration. Its not even worth it anymore to figure out what really is going on but when people lead you to believe that you matter,
How can you let go?

It is taking all that i have not to lash out wit words right now. I just want to scream so you know how angry I am. You can go Fuck yourself for all I care.

I'm beginning to realize how easy it is to separate myself from my emotions. Its connecting that's the hard part. I wish I knew why I'm this way. Strange...